We interrupt our regularly scheduled program…

I did an evil thing today. Something I didn’t think I was capable of. God help me, I actually wished diabetes on someone today.

I wished diabetes on the “No Woman” at Presbyterian health plan. The woman whose job it is to deny care for her profiteering masters. The woman who changes the rules so quickly no one can keep up. The woman who, once again, has blocked my health care team’s efforts to get me a pump and supplies for same.

I was sooooo mad at her duplicity, trickery, and inhuman attitude that after I hung up the phone following a particularly nasty phone call with this bitch I actually said out loud “I hope you get diabetes!”

I alternately sulked, steamed, felt sorry for myself, and felt angry with myself all the way home from the clinic. I tried cranking up my CD player to blast the blackness from my mind. No go. Finally I let out with a high-volume primal scream. I scared five rabbits, two road runners, and every mouse for five square miles half to death. I hurt my vocal cords. But it didn’t make me feel any better.

Hundreds of good people spent years creating the insurance I have. It uses a combination of state, federal, and small employer funds to ostensibly give low-income working folks like me great insurance. And on paper the insurance is great. No co-pay for visits. No co-pay for specialists. No co-pay for ER visits. $3 medications with a $12 monthly out-of-pocket cap. 100% durable medical goods coverage.

Actually, when my boss laid out the plan I thought we’d been invaded by Canada and lost. Lucky us.

But it is all smoke and mirrors. The State contracted with Presbyterian to “manage” the plan. And they are managing it right into their pockets, those profiteering sons-of-bitches. And how do you “manage” all this government and smaller employer money, and great health care, and make a profit? By denying care, that’s how.

Insulin pump adventures: an Advance Diabetes Treatment Certified Nurse Practioner provider isn’t good enough. Only MDs can Rx pumps. Oh, wait we changed the rules. MDs aren’t good enough. Must be endo. Then, well, pumps really aren’t standard of care for Type-1s. Then, we don’t supply consumables for out of warranty pumps. Then, we don’t replace out-of-warranty pumps, only broken ones. (Funny. Mine just fell on the floor and broke. )

Oh, and we won’t give you supplies for a Smith pump, we show we once paid for a single box from Medtronic. Those were CGM sensors, not pump stuff, you idiots.

Actually, they aren’t idiots at all. They are brilliant pirates. Brilliant pirates on a campaign of genocide. They are killing diabetics to make a buck. It is a crime against humanity. A war crime in the war between the haves and the have nots.

It is a sin.

But so is wishing diabetes on someone.